Oh dear, didn't Granny told you what goes around, comes around?

Sometimes I asked myself what do I exactly wants in life. Do I really want to be as rich as William Gates or I just want to get marry and becomes someone dear wife who go nowhere and stays home, cook, eat, sleep and give birth? Idk? I felt so lost when this question hits me so hard on my brain. I realised I've neglected so many things so many people all this while. Hereby, I just want to say I'm sorry. I promise I'll try to balance myself well with everyone/things.