I'm not okay, seriously I am not. I've been thinking about you so much lately. Too much in fact. And I dont know why. We haven't been in touch seen that very day I told you to fuck off from my life and not get me involved in anything that got to do with you. I wonder how are you doing? Is everything fine and smooth for you? Are you better off without me? I've never thought we were meant for one another til the day Joven & Jovin came into our life. Things got better, so much better since then. I become to rely so much so much on you, you became part of me, my life. I was so lost when you left. I felt empty, I forgot the reason to my existence. But I told myself, I gotta be strong. Strong enough to withstand everything that is coming their way. Reason being, you dont like to see me weak. Many walked into my life after you left.. But they are all pushed away, pushed far far away. Because I just couldn't get over the fact that we're over. No longer possible together. Call me silly, stupid, dumb.. Anything you want, I don't care. Cant be bothered anymore. Tears always find it's way down my cheeks when the once bittersweet memories of us began to unfold itself over and over again in my mind. I don't want to cry, I didn't wanto think of you.. But I just couldn't help it. I wanto tell everything to someone, but I realised I've got no one. Everyone is scolding me for living in the past, is asking me to put a total end to everything since you dont even give a damn. I know they meant well but they just dont know how I feel down there. From the very first day we were together, I know things wont last. Wont work out, but I just wanto give us a try. I wanted to give up on our first breakup.. Since things gotta end someday, I thought that day would be the day. Just when I was about to give up. You told me, ' I no longer like you, but I love you... ' But well, love dont seems to bring us far. In the end, thing still doesn't go the way I want it to. They say when you really truly love someone, let him go.. If he comes back, He's yours. If he doesn't, He is not and never will be yours. That's life? It always struck me with dilemma and caught me by surprised. Now I begin to wonder what life has for me next...........