J this is for you.

After one big round, yes. I miss our past. I miss our Js. I wished I could turn back time. I wish I was braved enough. I wish you were firmed enough. I want everything back, I want everything that once belong to me back. Can I? As much as I wanted to move on. I freezed. I just couldn't pretend that had nothing happened. I thought I could bury them, accept them, those once bitter sweet memories that belong to just you and I forever. But apparently it don't seem so. Idk why, but you kno its so terrible. It hurts me so badly. They bite. Just the thought of them, pain me enough. Lifes ironic, aint it? Sometimes back when you came to me telling me how you were suffering from the misery, I was the one that telling you to be strong be brave and get over and done w it. Now Im the pathetic one hugging on to them and refusing to let it go. Oh well, maybe that's just life. J, you actually has the dubious honour of being the first person to give my heart a haul. Thank you for making me hatelove you.

XOXO,
B