Today has been a long day.

Before class meetup Mini to get Roger's birthday present & my scarf for topman! :D Walked back to school slowly. Suprisingly I was very early for class. Went to the Mama shop opposite to get some snacks with Huiyan then. Strawberry Pocky! My all times favourite. :D Today's IS class was some relax, close your eyes thingys. & guess what? I actually fell asleep. /:

After class went some V8 cafe inside Parco with Huiyan, Roger, Shalom, Noel, Jason & a new friend, Xinjie. :D The food there sucks, I swear. I'll never step into the cafe again. Stupid roger, lousy recommendation. lol. /:

Soon after meal, Mini and bear came over and join us for some shoppings around bugis. & Roger is damn funny can? He wanted to buy G-string as a birthday gift for one of his female friend but he don't dare to even hold d hanger up. So he dragged me there and take the G-string up and show him the side, back view and all. Shalom another joker, when he saw us walking toward the lingere section, he was like " Eeeek, hello! Why are we going there? " But no one responded to him and he walked to another section with Jason. Damn hilarious, I swear. I still find it very funny when I come to think of it now. lol.

Slowly as it's getting later, some went off to meet friends, some went home to chiong homework/sleep, and then it's only left with Mini, Bear and me. They suggested to go over to Can's cafe and we walked over. But it's like wth! It's close for renovation. ): & I suggested going over to Pitchblack. :D Along the way we walked passed pluck and I got myself some icecreams. {: Icecreams are madness okay?!?!?!?! Slack there for a few lazy hours and snapped quite a no. of nice pictures. :D Left around 9plus.

Went back to somewhere near my house to meet up Lester. Omgosh! It has been like a hundred years since I last saw him! I bet he miss me like crazy. & wtf! He called me chao ahlian! shit him la. lol. Anyway, nice catching up with you again. {: & yay! I manage to be back home when the clock strike 12. (:

Btw, Happy Birthday Nicky.

Dearest Mr Someone Special,

Things seem to change at least alittle after I met you. It's all so amazing. You're my happy happy pill, you made me smile with the slightest thing on earth. I'm really happy everytime I talk to you. (: Those things you said/did to me just keep replaying itself in my mind again and again. Every time just as I thought I wont be able to bump into you today, you will appear right before me even before I noticed. Even though everytime when we met each other it's so short that we only have those few moments to exchange an acknowledgment smile. Sometimes even when you're inside the lift and I'm outside watching your lift goes up. Well, that's enough. (: A tiny winy bit of you everyday is enough to make me smile to bed. I hope to see you again tomorrow, hopefully..

Is that love or is it just infratuation?

Yours truly, Bessie

Intially meeting Mini before class but unfortunately she fell ill.

Get well soon my dear mini. (:
Went for IT class and it's all about photoshop, as I was late for class and I missed many things. So I don't really understand what's going on. & therefore the class was damn boring. & so...

LOL!

There're alot alot nicer one but I forgot to transfer into my thumbdrive. Hmmm.. Shall do the transfer next IT class. :D After class went all the way to Jurong point to have dinner with Roger & Nicky. Aww.. it has been ages since I last meet all my girlfriends! Next week, I promise. (:

Homeclub & Velvet Dragon last night. (:

It was tiring but fun. Nice experiences, nice company. Eve, Andrew, Kenric, Jason, Mini, Roger, Nicky, Eddie, Dester, Jackson, Ken and more. Homeclub was fine intially but underage party.. Left around 2am+ went over to Velvet instead. Omgosh, should have went there earlier la! Velvet is love, I swear. Though didn't really drink much but danced alot. Clubbed all the way til like 4.45am. I'm tired but enjoyed myself. Wanted to go back to homeclub after that but well, heard that the party ended late because of some fights? Not very sure. After that went slacking outside homeclub for sometimes before heading for some pratas. Cab home with Nicky, Roger & Ken after that. {:

Didn't I said fridays are love?

(21st September 2007)

My clique. (:

Meet Mini~

Nice effect.

I'm glad to have them with me in school most of the time.

Roger's favourite ':o' expression.

Didn't I say she loves me alot?

Bitching partners! :D

I'm happy.

I'm happier, (:

I think I look like a tortise here.

Nice one. Triple the actions.

I think they have couple face, Keng thinks like wise.

Muahaha, I've got the chicken! :D

Candid.

Bessie shooting. (:

'Say somemore, I shoot you ahxXxXxXz!'

I like this pic alot. (:

She's shorter than it, and that's why she is named mini.

The fat-act-pro-aunty on the right sucks.

Huiyan, huiyan the richman's daughter.

Roger trying to act cool!!! /:

Yo world, say byebye to all those sad sad emo stuffs! Bessie is now a happy girl once again. Thanks to him. {:

This is specially for you ; I'm glad that I sent that text and talked things out with you. Yea, let's put everything behind us & 'start afresh'! Yesssssss, every words I said just now are none other than truth. Don't worry I did not betray your trust and will never ever let this happen. I give you my words, confirm chop & set ahzxzxzxzx!! {:

Classmates = loves, Friday = Lepak day ; Classmates + Friday = Happiness! {;

Hitted town with loves, got ps by some heartless dumbass 1 by 1. Oh by the way I got myself 1 papa and 1 mama today. (: LOL! Pool after dinner. Yay! I got owned like mad la. }: It's always d freaking last ball no.8 that cause me to... ERR! Okay, owned means owned no excuse. I swear I'm going to own you all 1 fine day! :D Took alot of pictures today. Upload when all of them send it to me. Alright, time to turn in. Let me end your night with something sizzling hot. :D Good night world.

Homeclub, homeclub here I come come! {:

Yes, I learned my lesson. I'm sorry for being sucha busy body all these while. I'm sorry for trusting you. I'm sorry for sharing with you my life. I'm sorry for bitching with you. Sorry, blame it all on me..

Bessie ♥ says (12:36 AM):
wtf!!!
Bessie ♥ says (12:36 AM):
ehh,
Bessie ♥ says (12:36 AM):
u ass la.
Bessie ♥ says (12:36 AM):
but at least u made me laughed.
Bessie ♥ says (12:36 AM):
haha.
Bessie ♥ says (12:36 AM):
love u babe.
Bessie ♥ says (12:36 AM):
(:
Bessie ♥ says (12:36 AM):
aye, but i aso nt pretty. so nbrm.
i wanna have you invaded, by me of course. says (12:37 AM):
you are pretty lah
i wanna have you invaded, by me of course. says (12:37 AM):
serious
i wanna have you invaded, by me of course. says (12:37 AM):
take some time off people and think about what you want in life.
i wanna have you invaded, by me of course. says (12:37 AM):
maybe because you are depressed now and that you cant think straight
i wanna have you invaded, by me of course. says (12:38 AM):
but im sure you would want a stable, mature boyfriend.
i wanna have you invaded, by me of course. says (12:38 AM):
someone who isn't childish.
i wanna have you invaded, by me of course. says (12:38 AM):
and judging from all the things you have told me about him,
i wanna have you invaded, by me of course. says (12:39 AM):
i think he is, in fact, a thumb-sucking infant trying to talk.

How much sweeter can she get? I fucking love you bitch! {:

I don't what exactly is wrong with me recently. Get easily pissed by the slightest things on earth and my mood seems to be forever moody for almost everyday. The passed few days are simply killer! Things just came one after another like overnight?!?!?! Abit too much to digest then all at once. Well, I used to tell someone that I believes that there's definitely a solution to every problems. Now that you're gone..

Actually, I'm much much better already la people! Don't worry pleassssssssssssssse! I don't like it when you're down because I'm feeling blue. Yep, I'm not those that will bear grudges. Nope, no hard feeling against anyone. I can't make the world love me, so love/hate me your choice. {; But hey, bitching is my pastime okay? Come'on tell me who don't bitch? At least I learned to keep secrets. {:

& come give me a pat on my back, I finally goes to school like after so many days of 'ponning'. (: School is pretty alright, today is IT class. We got to learn some photoshop 'skills'. lol. & you know, during IT class we get to use the pcs! Muhaha. Omgosh! I sounds so despo sia. Well, I'm not. Oh by the way, did i forget to mention my teacher is a hot hot chick! {:

After school meet up Celest first for erm.. light dinner? & then lepaking partner. Yada yada, my life is pretty dull but I like, I like. (:

You, you, you and her. Too much to care/to worry about. Now I don't care, don't know and don't want to know anymore. These are killers. If everything goes on like this I'm going to die very soon, from thinking/stressing too much. Fuck to all your 'I think', 'she said'. 'he said' & 'he think' okay? I can't force you to believe every single fucking words I said. & so be it. Alright. I'm only coming this far. That's enough. (:


Well, I strongly believe in karma retributions. What goes around, comes around. Say/do whatever you want & you will sow what you reap my dear. I suggest you to think twice before you open your mouth for the next moment. {: Life have been a bastard recently. Nothing seems to interest me as much as before anymore, not even my all times favourite Lakerol. }:


Please give me a reason to not wait for your calls anymore, no more.

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Found this from kenric's blog, kinda interestng. & heh! My body worth more than you! {:

" As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to let us down, probably will. You'll definitely have your heart broken, probably more than once. & it's harder every time. You'll break heart too, so remember how it felt when someone broke yours. You'll fight with your best friend and maybe even fall in love with them. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast and you'll eventually lose someone close to your heart. So take many pictures, laugh more and love like you've never been hurt before, because every 60 seconds you spend angry or upset is a minute of happiness you'll N-E-V-E-R get back. "

saw this on somewhere and found it quite true. {:

Oh fuck it, my damn hp have got something against me! It refused to wake me up on time to go to school to see my eye candy & I hate it alot alot. Yesssss, I missed morning 2d lesson again because I overslept. /: It's really time to change my life. No more chilling out to wee hours, no more phonecalls to 4am, no more gluing my eyes to my laptop watching dvd til dawn, no more 3am msn bitching session! Can someone teach me to sleep early pleasssssssssssssssse!?!?!?!?! Lights off at 12am! Omgosh, my lifestyle seriously sucks big time. It's really time for me to pull up my socks and be a nerd nerd now!

Oh well, life can never be better to know that you've a bunch of lovely friends(you know, I never like to list names out. you know who you're. {:)never gonna leave me no matter what. We gotta learn to cherish and treasure before it's too late. Never take things for granted. Life is short but never too short to realise how much someone care about you. I'm contented with what I've now. All that I've lost, thankyou very much for letting me grow up yet another little bit. I hate it when I realised that I've gotta lost someone/something to gain another someone/something. Worth it? Maybe or maybe not. Idk?

Time can bland the lemon taste but time can never measure the value for something. I hope you get what I'm trying to convey to you, yes you!

I realised you will have to lost one to gain another one. & you know it's never a good thing to be a Mr.Nice, people tends to only remember you when they need you.
I don't know about you but at least for me I did/tried my best.


To whoever it may concern:
Everytime when someone tells me something like ' he is not a good person la, dont hang out with him' , 'the things he say 9/10 is lie la' or even ' be careful he backstab you one day' , i just smiled and ignore because I trust that you're changed. I trust you with my secrets but you betrayed my trust. I keep everything to myself when you told me it's a secret. You told me how scary rumours can be, but you rather believe every single words of r-u-m-o-u-r than me. I didn't know you actually thinks that I'm such an ass to cause 2 friends to fight for nothing. The truth is, I didn't want the situation to worsen so I didn't even bother to explain and let everything be as it is & now, it's my fault. & it's damn frigging funny to misunderstand my msn personal message. It's kind of shocking for me to get to know that you said I twist words & tell untrue stuffs. Remember you once told me every single words that you told me before does not contain any lies? Well, believe it or not me too!


This is not the first time all these craps happened. Neither is it the first time you doubt me. It's not as if I didnt try to salvage anything. In fact I tried almost everything. I'm tired. You're stubborn, if you insist.. There's nothing I can do, so be it.

I doubt you read my blog, & so..

The best thing that happened in my life was the day when we first met. You captured my eyes with your familiar actions.. As time passed by, we became close, not just as friends but slightly more than that. We faced many problems and circumstances but we surpassed it all. But now things are pretty dark. I don't know what's wrong. But I guessed, now is the time for me to say goodbye. It's not because I don't care anymore. I realise you don't fucking trust me even a little when I never ever doubt you. When I needed you so much.. Everyone else are asking 'Are you okay/alright?' except you. & that's that.

Oh by the way, guess I'm not attending school tomorrow. Because lecture make me sleep & 3d is too erm.. boring! Psycho-ed many not to go with me too. hehehe. But I'll miss my bitches alot alot. I've not see them since erm.. friday? Aye, it's okay! Tuesday will be here in a blink of eyes. & I promise i won't skip tuesday class, never! Because my eye-candy class is beside mine every tuesday! muhahahaha.

Omgosh! No more late night talk up til 4am anymore. I've been sucha pig recently. sleeping like 3/4 of my day off. Please tell me that I'm not hopeless. Yep, I did 3 things today. Miss you, miss you & miss you. Alright tomorrow will be a more productive day I guess. Goodnight world. (:

The littlest of things make me happy.

It's 15th today. Oh, oh, oh fuck it. You know, you sucks hard. Alot of times, I asked myself why am I still smiling at my handphone/laptop when I recieved your text or you pop me a conver. in msn. I feeling so bastard. Trying to have both side of the world huh? Look at me, read my lips fuck you!

Is that erm, celebration? I hesitated if should I meet you for quite a few moments before I make my way there. Seriously, I didn't regret meeting you. I really don't understand why we still carry those memories that we shouldn't have. You asked why did I smoke? You asked me not to smoke when you blew a puff into my face. Omgosh. You are such an ass & I'm such a bitch.

Okay, I lied again. I said I'll go out with whoever who date me out this saturday but well well.. Sorry to all who I said no to. /: Maybe I'll date you, you or you out next saturday! Await for my call. (: lol.

But well, at least I went out at last! :D Wento limbang mac and then to yew tee and back to limbang mac. Lameshit, I know. I'm so sorry to my dearest Celest & weeah. Oh btw, Jinyi is a nice bitch to bitch with. (:

If you insist, so be it. There's no point forcing you to believe every single word I bullshitted.

Bessie loves small trees! (:

Today is my most errrr... should I say happening day? So here I'm sitting infront of my laptop staring blankly, hoping that this dreadful day will just pass by in a flash. to no avail, of course what was intially supposed-to-be-the-shortest-day tuned out to be the-longest-day-ever....

Supposingly, I skip school stay at home and sleep my ass out & Celest come over to my place after her school ends but well well well, thanks to mario & ziyang! Nice plan ah! Ruin my intially super nice plan. }:

Was lepaking around Yewtee instead. My stupid junior is a super irritting dumbshit. Went back to my-oh-unity! Made a new friend, Adawiyah! :D I didn't know actually I've the best damn things on earth! I seriously, truthfully fucking love every single one of you who make me worth living another day on earth. & I don't have to list out 1 by 1, you know who you are. Yesssssssss you, much loves! (: I'm sorry too.

Everything happened so suddenly and so shockingly. Something very unexpected happened today. You know I'm still quite tramatised by everything that just took placed. Even some words still keep replaying in my mind. But I don't wish to elaborate further. Thanks god, nothing serious happened. Hopefully all that have happened put an end to everything. Actually I'm quite proud of myself because I didn't shead even a drop of tears afterall. (:

But I found out something I should'nt have. Arghs. I seriously don't know what to do. Once again you left me on the merry-go-round going round and round again. Thank you very much. I seriously dont wish to come in between you both when I already gave you my blessing. You know, even though you didn't tell me the reason why but your eyes told me everything. It doesn't matters anymore, really. I told myself, I gotta pick myself up & become even stronger and never look back again eversince the day you left me. But what the fuck are you doing/am I thinking. Everytime when I face you, I always have no choice but to come clean to you. This time round I'm tired, please leave me alone.

For that moment I fucking love the 3 hours of my life. Are we fine? Idk? Everything solved? I know we're not like before anymore, a doze of you once every few days will make me the happiest girl alive. I know, it sounds silly but well who doesn't when it comes to love?

I freaking want to go for my tongue piercing & clubbing now!

You know, I used to hate smokers alot. Oh well, smoking make me high high high.

I'm a super untidy girl. So is my room. /: Many many art friend Plastic bags, bags, lecture notes, magazines, homeworks, wore/unwore clothings, hello kitties & many many more stuffs cover my 3/4 of my floor. I have to waddle my way through (just like what people usually did it during gss) every night when I need to get some sleeps. But today when I stepped home, my room was finger licking clean man! Thanks to my wonderful parents who took few days of their work and pack the entire house. I think they seriously deserve a pat on their back. (: Oh well, but I doubt my sparkling clean room can last for more 2 weeks. /:

My mind have been pondering over many many different matters since few days ago. Is everything worst than what I expect? Or is it that I'm over-sensitive? Is everything going to be alright soooooooooooon? Idk? I used to be a very positive person but well, many I gave you too much of my positive-ness already. @.@

Oh anyway, went for my last print making class today. (: April is the most nice teacher, I bet the class will definitely miss her hells loads. She is most probably the only teacher in lasalle that allow us to eat tau huey, curry puffs & stuffs during class. Okay anyway, sneaked out halfway through the class to makan rochor tau huey. :D

After that supposingly going to gym, but well well, that lazy celest changed our plan. Wento yewtee mac to mug instead. As usual a fruitless mugging session. Got into some shitty stuffs and there goes my another thursday.

Alright, I'm tired. Time to turn in.

You know I'm still waiting for your goodnight.

I just like errrrrrr... lied. I just said in my previous post I won't skip anymore classes.. But I just skipped tutorial and errrr.. Bridget's class this morning. /: However, I'm not that lazy la. I still make my way to marina square for the afternoon drawing class! :D

On the way there, witness many freaking funny incident but shit la. It's either I'm too far away from it or like it happened too fast before I take out my cellphone to take picture. lol. Okay, I'm bad. Damn bad. /: & too before the class, some dont know what magazine approached and asked if I'm interested to join their 'dressing team'? I was too shocked to digest the news, so my face was like damn frozen la. & my frozen face rejected them. lol. Kind of regreted? Or is that a prank? Whatever. It doesn't matters. (: Anyway, someone approached me few days ago at parco bugis asking me if I'm a japanese? lol. I'm fucking happy. Because Japanese are so freaking cute can? hahaha. Okay, enough of my nonsense. (: Well, saw many ex-classmates today too. Hello! :D

Seriously, I wonder if I were to bump into anyone of them 10 years down, what will life for me be then? Married with like 1 kid? Fucking rich and leading some taitai life? I still remember how my ex and I discuss how many kids we're going to have, what are we going to name them. lol. Well, that's the past. (: Hmm.. Anyway, recently I started talking to my ex again. Be it, msn or sms. I think I've been a bitch. Yesssssssss, he's attached now and I'm still.... Aye, Idk? Old feelings still linger abit. I don't deny the fact that I still do miss him erm a tiny winy bit. I'm not those who bear grudges, usually I only remember those happy memories I spent with the person. Be it, my ex-boyfriend, ex-flings, or even my used-to-be-bestie. Call me silly, call me dumb. I don't care. (: But ironically I do bitch about some of them la. haha. Come'on who don't bitch? Well, remembered? Bessie seldom care what others think about her, as long as my cliques, buddies & you know me well. You guys know that I've learned to keep promises & recently learned to keep secrets. :}

Okay, basically today is a kick ass day man! Because drawing class is so damn fun, I'm enjoyed every single bits of it. I'll upload all those pics soon! :D Ohya, made a new friend kelly. She is another hottie! @.@ Did some erm... 'fruitless' shopping at marina square after class. Sucha disappointment. I want to buy so many so many stuffs but well, remembered? I'm just out of job like 3 days ago. }:

OH! By the way, had some heart-to-heart-talk with keng. & I love it. & hey ass, you've me la you're not alone!!! Remember you like 1 of the 5 person in this world that got to know my darkest secret, be honoured! (:

You know it's been long since i got adrenaline rush pumped into me. My heart really did pump so fast that I almost can't breathe when I saw your name appearing on my handphone screen. You know I really hate myself for loving you sooooooo much even though I don't really know you well. My friends warned me about you, defame you. But you know I dont care a fuck and I dont know why. When I talked to you I feel that I'm the happiest girl alive. Oh, fuck that.

I thought I'm pretty clear what's going on, but well. I don't. Is this what they erm.. love? I tell you, I don't believe in stuffs like ' I love you forever and ever.. ' , ' I can't live without you.. ' blah blah blah. These are bullshits, to me. Trust me promises are meant to be break. Nono, I do keep secrets and my words, I kept yours, yours & his. (: But some people just don't care a fuck after sometimes. At times, I really hope I can change you. When people tell me negative stuffs about you, I don't give a damn. I trust you. Tell me did I misplaced my trust?


Anyway, school is a pretty alright today. Except that I was late for like 1 hour for my favourite class!!! :{ Bridget is freaking goooooooood today too. :D She praised me for like 3 times? & yay! Another reason for me to work harder!!! It's damn disheartening to see all the other classes' works are so freaking nice and yours is like primary school kids also can do. I don't want to fall back in class. So I'm not skipping any classes anymore, I swear. (:


After class, visited art friend with shalom & aziera. Get the necessaries and went seperate way with azeira. She's such an ass la. When I can go home with her, she gotta meet boyfriend. When She can go home with me, I've something on. ): Well, it's only first month... We still have like 2, 3, 4,5 .... and many more months la! :D Sp nice of shalom to accompany me back to novus cafe to get my pay. Bloody little, they gave me like 30 bucks lesser. Like wtf sia. I'm super poor and jobless now! So every cents count man!!!!!!!!! lol. Omgosh, I sounds like so cheapo aunty but I'm not!! Get me a job that can suit my timing, not so boring, nice colleagues and pay damn high & I promise you, I'll love you more than anyone else. :}


Yesssssssss, I'm a bitch. I love bitching, I know what I can bitch about, what I can't & I know the meaning of between us. So don't ever doubt me. If you don't trust me, don't even tell me in the first place. (:


Celestine Low Fang Ting you're a lucky bitch, cos you've got me! :D
You this weakling, 2nd day of school only got sick?!?!?!?!?!
GET WELL SOON PLEASE. (:

I feel like eating sunshine plaza muffins! :D

Iloveyo! :}


This one of the reason for why I love my school. (: