I'm praying very very hard every single day just to hear you tell me how much you miss me.
Because you are viagra to my heart,
Because I smile for you,
Because you are my daily essential,
Because I can't get you out of my mind.

I think I love you.I think I love you.

I asked myself what am I exactly doing?

It's all too serious too soon.
I always wanted to tell you how much I love you..

But I have no idea why I just dont have the courage to tell you what my heart wants to say.

Maybe I'm just too uptight, over reacted..

I'm sorry, for denying yet time & again.

Just give me sometimes to sort out my thinkings.

Is this all just an infatuation?

I'm so lost, I don't know where I stand.

All I ever wanted is you to love me.
Too many things in between us, we cant be selfish.

Things are going slow, going smooth and hopefully going right.

I wonder what you're thinking of tonight.

You're so afraid of me being upset.

You never failed to surprise me.

With you, I can't help but just smile truly from deep down my heart.

You're my happy pill that I need everyday.

16th October, You walked into my life.

18th October, Those sweet short exchanged stares, the smile that makes me melt. You knew that the girl name is, Bessie.

19th October, That was the first time we spoke to each other. I regretted for not accepting your flower.

20th October, I don't know why it seems that everytime we met, it's pre-planned. I'm madly addicted to how you smile at me.

21st October, I thought I missed my chance of seeing you, but you suddenly popped out from my back telling me 'I'm very pretty today.' I was like Omgosh, am I dreaming.

23rd October, I dropped my lighter, you lend yours to me. You ended off my day sweetly by giving me a carrot flower that you craved for me.

25th October, You said you like to see me, you said my smiles could bring away your tiredness, you said i'm cute that's why you like me.. You promised to crave me another 20 carrot flowers. Are you serious or are you kidding?

26th October, I'm too shy to talk to you infront of the crowd, I'm sorry.

27th October, You offered to send me home & I agreed. You asked me to stop smoking, you promised you'll try quitting. You told me you love me. & that makes me the happiest girl on earth, at least for that moment. You told me your past, your present and you asked me about your future. You promised to bring me for a movie next week. Are we dating?

IloveyouB.

Too many things, too little time.

Life is pretty hectic, I can hardly breathe.

Bascially I think I've been slacking my days off.

Clubbing, Shopping, Schooling, Working and maybe some Dating? (:

One thing, I'm getting poorer and poorer. }:

God of wealth visit me soon please!

Oh by the way, I suddenly feel that I'm so lucky to have so many lovely peoples around me helping/taking good care of me here and there all along.

I fucking love you guys! :}

My novus cafe, resturant, bar colleagues,

My Lasalle Classmates,

My smoking buddies,

My dearest Unitians,

My primary schoolmates,

My clubbing khakis,

My girlfriends

& lastly not forgetting my dearest parents.

As promised, here's d pictures. :D

This school gave us a week of break for us to catch up with our project, & this is how I spent my week. {: (Pictures in the following entry)

Monday 1/10/07:
Attended Fared's 6hrs of drawing class 2 cityhall memorial park. Everyone elses are so hardcore man. But my clique, namely Roger, Shalom aka Jojo, Huiyan & Keng are really damn slack la. We can go queue for donut factory's donut and shop at river island. /: omgosh! I cannot think of what is my future like. lol. After class went to funan IT mall with Keng and her evil friend! O: & westmall to meet Mom for some dumb m1 issues. Home after dinner. (:

Tuesday 2/10/07:
Slept in, woke up late afternoon. Around 3pm? Meetup Xinjie for dinner @ plaza sing in the evening. Had suki sushi for dinner & Swensens Fondue for dessert. LOL! I was freaking full after I put the last mashmallow into my mouth. So long since I last had sucha nice dinner. (: After that went over to Huiyan's house to wait her to prepare. Initially wanted to go to a pub where her friend is working for some drink but well, nicky & I manage to make huiyan visits the west instead. & I asked Kenric to join us too. :D Omgosh. Slacking @ cck park til 6am in the morning with some drinking & poker cards.. {: & I was said to be fucking drunk, can you imagine me going to like only 10cm away from a cat, I slept at some 'movable' part of the playground and fall off the swing when I sat on it. Like super wtf. Yesssssss, damn unglam. Ohya, when it was 4am I suddenly got the idea of going through my hp phonebook searching for a few unlucky souls. hehehe. "Hello XXX, eh faster wake up and pee!! Faster, faster. If not later you wet dream eh.... " Everyone's reaction to this is different. But all equally hilarious. Had a good chat with nicky & this really change my impression of him. {: After that walked huiyan to the bustop then nicky walked me home & he went off after that..

Wednesday 3/10/07:
Slept at 7am this morning & woke up at 5pm. Basically I just waste my time sleeping this few days. /: Went all the way to the east to meet celine just to pass her back her ipod! @.@ Honestly I find it quite ridiculous myself too, but well take it as a experience. I'll never want to borrow other's ipod ever again. After that went over to parkway parade to meetup Huiyan & her friend, cliff for super ultra late dinner. & followed by going back to her house to karaoke. & I realise all my 'lovelife' is always link to Jay Zhou's songs. (Jie Kou, Kai Bu Liao Kou, Qing Tian) lol. Parents were blursting my hp, so I gotta cabbed home. Fucking wasted 20bucks. & I think I pretty much wasted today as well.

Thursday 4/10/07:
After yesterday's 'wasteful' experience, I learned my lesson. Stayed in today. Initially wanted to chiong my project, followed by doing Celest's bday present but that was intially la. I ended up taking the whole day drawing some tees for my favourite girl, Celestine. :D & meetup Lester to lepak after I'm done. After that wanted Celest to join us but aye, my Mom is too mad with me staying out til super late that she insisted me to get home by 11pm. =,= so well. Sry Celestine!

Friday 5/10/07:
Guessed what? It's my favourite girl's birday today! Happy birday Small girl! :D
Meetup Celest and Jingni @ lot 1 to celebrate celest's birday. (: We had sakae sushi buffet, it was damn filling! I almost cant zip my pants. /: Followed by pool. It was damn freaking funny la, Jingni owned me , I owned Celest and Celest owned Jingni. LOL! After pool, I insisted in going into the arcade & waste money! Those games are damn lameshits but I like, I like. I can't remember exactly when is the last time I stepped into an arcade but I guess it couldn't be like months ago, most probably 1 years back? I'll never forget 'JBJHJ' days. {: Before we leave the arcade, the gachapon stall next to it seems to be telling us, 'now step in here, we'll bring you laughters! :D' wth. but it's true! & u'll never guess how silly were we. Together we spent close to 30bucks in catching candies! -.= But the silliness is fun, very fun. & I enjoyed myself alot with my 2 loves! Did you enjoy yourself today? {:

Saturday 6/10/07:
Went back to work after 1 month. I miss them alot, alot! Love my workplace as much as ever, in fact even more. :D Meetup Jasmine after work and went over to homeclub first as usual. Meeetup Kenric & Jason & yay! PLUSH, the previous velvet dragon. :D It's was blurst! & I'm so amazed by myself today! I actually didnt get even tipsy after 2 tequila pop, 2 vodka ribena, 2 gin cola & ending off with bailey. Left around 4am, cabbed back to teck whye mac. Slack for sometimes before going home to catch some sleep before work later on at 11am!

Sunday 7/10/07:
As I predicted I cant wake up for work today. /: So I stayed home to chiong some of my projects instead. & I'm pretty productive today. :D
Btw, Happy 18th Birthday Xinjie. {:

( the writing is so badly done mainly because of my fat fingers, and i dont have a mouse with me. /: )

Hello Celest, Happy Birthday you, Luckyass. {:

Afterall I just a girl, a girl like any other girl who yearn to be love, to be dote, to be pamper. I only need a kiss to confirm, confirm that I'm your girl. At times, I do feel kinda jealous when I see those sweet sweet couple out there. I want someone to hear me rant and whine too! Can I have you here to be my fucking boyfriend??

Donuts Madness!

Yesssssss, this is from Raffles City Donut Factory. Nono, I didnt queue. All I did was smile at someone in the queue. {:

This is new, a new donut house at yewtee. Yummy Donut. I didnt queue as well. I merely stand infront of a slightly shorter kid. {: