Spoiled noon, thanks to an Idiot. Never fail to annoyed me. Yes, is it so damn freaking hard for me to get my belongings back? Oh yea, now you want prove. Mail you somemore. Mister, I'm no longer your full-time slave/pet/secretary. Please get this important fact into your head. I dont, dont have to abide your commands anymore. I just want everything cleared and cleaned between us. The thought of having some 'linkage' with you still irk me. Seriously. Just, let things go back to how it should be. Hate me, condem me all you want, I dont fucking give a shit. Because I realise I was once stupid.

Yes, very screwed up day when I decided to put a total end to everything. But actually expected la, I seen worst of your doings. This is just peanuts. Just so you know, I realised you no longer play a important role. At least to me. Oppppps.

On the second thought no exactly that bad either. From yesterday til now, 1st April 3.03am I have barely took a wink! Brain dead, jerking and more jerks. Anyway, metup Shermaine for K session at cine today. I must comment, K lunch cheap but th food sucks big time. Eeeew! Met the rest at Suntec aftermath. Jol, Mj, Ls, Lt & Chole. Shopping shopping time again. YEA, seems like my 'shopaholic disease' back in action lately. Bought 2 hair bands, havianias gold wordings flip flop, Dress Tees and plenty of my fave Ritter Sport chocolate!

From time to time, I wished love a lil easier. Why cant love be a lil less complicated? Love is just the between the 2, why get messy.. Why cant Love be ; Her love + His love = Happily Ever After? I hate to find out that I'm in love now and the next moment I'm out of love. I tried hard to not fall in love, but love still manage to find it's way here. Oh, love could be much simple...

NOTE! Filled with love, heavy images/loves.

To Do List!

J'aime J

When In love

Will you keep?






Come inside here.


A kiss tell a million words.

Do you?

What is love?

True.

Millions of sorry

Love Cactus

Love in th room

Grab on to me

Some where faraway

Make love

His & Hers

The girl no longer me..

Exactly!

Happpily ever after

Forever Love

Will I?

Love Pills

Love shots

Love Island.

25th March,

Sentosa with Eleannor, Huiting & Big Pris. Supposed t meet at 10 but stupid Pris 9.55am then texted me ' i just wake up!' , luckily I'm smart enough to overslept too! haha. Ended up everyone is late la.. Good tanning, nice weather. Vivo for lunch and some shoppings with th girls before Big Pris and Huiting left us. Eleannor & I headed down to Wisma aftermath.. As I wanted to get some stuffs for topshop. Willy was supposed to meet us up la! But he wasn't feeling well, so ya. Sister long time no see, squeeze time meet me pls! haha. Bus to Eleannor house for fooooooooood & caught th last train home. Th 3rd wed that I'm not at ph! ):

26th March,

Big Pris came down to my company for interview this evening, she got enlisted. Starting next tues, oh man! Cannot imagine seeing her every now and then la. Eeeew! Haha. /: Trained home w Joanne after work.

27th March,

After work, Alvin drove me to Cine to meet Eleannor & Johan. Long time no see, still as idiotic as ever. Shortly Kenric came over and we cabbed down t zouk. Waited for Huiyan for a bloody hour la, and it's like finally she came! Kenric & I are both like dozing off soon alrd man. Metup w th rest inside phuture. Alan, Andy, Wilfred, Nick, Daryl, Guoren & co. It's true that when drunk, everyone is everyone's friend. Haha. Ohya, Bumped into my sec sch classmate, Daryl Cai too! Omg, he's in army alrd like so fast? The days when we fight in class during sec school life is still so vivid.. Opened like 6 bottles in total, I was drinking like a goldfish together with Alan la. By 1.3o I'm alrd damn damn high. Dance floor freaking squeezy. Thanks to those who were holding on to me not letting me fall and all too. Junhao was supposed to join me at here but he too gone at play la. Johnson was super crazy. Haha. All th way til party ended.. Was puking all th way from phuture to Junhao's place la. /: Sorry Junhao! Stayed over and home th next morning.

28th March,


With Jolina, Shermaine, Valerie & Mingjie. I think th movie is meant for shopaholic like me. Shopaholic do watch it! (:

Hi world I'm back!

18th March,
Last minute dont have to work. Meetup Eleannor for Song Fa Bkt @ opposite central. Headed to Haji aftermath. While waiting for th arrival of stephen & friend. Eleannor and I went for some mani, pedicure. It was awesome! I definitely would go back for more, besides thy re also having some promo going on. 50% discounts for their different packages, good deal I would say. After mani/pedicure, we just randomly wento few shops down for sheesha. Stephan's friend, I dont know his name and I dont wish to know, is damn rude. Eleannor and I were so annoyed by his ugly friend. /: Then supper with Rion and Johan at spize before cabbing home.

19th March,

Happy Birthday Alvin, surprised Alvin with a chocolate truffle cake at work. He really wasnt prepared for anything. Good, I'm glad that I did surprised him. Heh! Knocked off early, met Andy at Forum Mac. Headed to double O, saw Emily outside O bar. It was her bday, she so wanted us to join her.. Just when I was about to say yes, Evonne called she told me she is opposite O Bar with Alvin, asked me to join them for some wines. I thought why not? So I went over. Before heading back to look for Andy wento take a look at Rivergate first, omg didnt expect it to be so nicely done. Was deciding w th rest to or not to go into double O, Charles called me.. So in th end headed down to Bangkok(thai disco) together with Andy, Perry & Zoo. Had a few drinks there. Nice catching up with Charles for after so long! Glad that you got yourself a job, sister! Continue to work hard and stop lazing ard alrdy ok? Aftermath headed to Arena to meet Bear with th rest. Arena was so so so boring... Wanted to chill at china one actually but thy re closing. Ended up in Ipanema, some liveband shits la. Had alot of drinks there! I almost k.o but well, that place is just not my type of place la. Mee goreng at Newton with Andy all before Andy sent me home.

20th March,

Closed an One Amber together with Alvin today! (: Dinner at Bishan with him before he drives me home..

21th March,

Meet Jolina under her block and we headed off to Chc together. Awesome time spent tgt! Nice seeing all th old faces after so long. See you guys again next wk! (: After that went down to Chinatown to dinner with Belle. Sorry Babe, I was late for about an hour! Dinner not v good, exp somemore. Aftermath headed down t vivo! Powerhouse w GaryS and gang. Met Ken, Joseph and all th cliques there. Jasmine all were there too. Ohya, bumped into kelvin and Billy too! Huiyan and co. came down too. Just when we were communicating my phone dead on me. Didnt get to meet her up in th end. ): By 12.30 I was alrd high, ken all la! Keep making me tar all my drinks! Was an awesome night! Let's club again soon. Yay!

22th March,

Supposed to hit Malaysia with my dear Janice but then last minute cancelled. Stayed home the whole day. Dad's father came over, and omg he happened to be Junhao's Senior in Maju Camp. Hahahaha! Btw, Happy Birthday Hector! Celebrate with you again soon..

23th March,

Yay, Sissy is back from her sports camp. She's black like charcoal. Went home together with her.

24th March,

Met Eleannor at Toni & Guy Academy, waited for her to finish cutting her hair. Omg, it was sucha killer! Luckily I brought my laptop, was watching my mobtv. Aftermath, wento try our luck to see if huiting is work, yay she is! Had lunch with her at rochor for th 'katong laksa'. Sent her back, shopped ard before heading back to office. Worked til late again..

*p/s: photos to be uploaded real soon

I'm not okay, seriously I am not. I've been thinking about you so much lately. Too much in fact. And I dont know why. We haven't been in touch seen that very day I told you to fuck off from my life and not get me involved in anything that got to do with you. I wonder how are you doing? Is everything fine and smooth for you? Are you better off without me? I've never thought we were meant for one another til the day Joven & Jovin came into our life. Things got better, so much better since then. I become to rely so much so much on you, you became part of me, my life. I was so lost when you left. I felt empty, I forgot the reason to my existence. But I told myself, I gotta be strong. Strong enough to withstand everything that is coming their way. Reason being, you dont like to see me weak. Many walked into my life after you left.. But they are all pushed away, pushed far far away. Because I just couldn't get over the fact that we're over. No longer possible together. Call me silly, stupid, dumb.. Anything you want, I don't care. Cant be bothered anymore. Tears always find it's way down my cheeks when the once bittersweet memories of us began to unfold itself over and over again in my mind. I don't want to cry, I didn't wanto think of you.. But I just couldn't help it. I wanto tell everything to someone, but I realised I've got no one. Everyone is scolding me for living in the past, is asking me to put a total end to everything since you dont even give a damn. I know they meant well but they just dont know how I feel down there. From the very first day we were together, I know things wont last. Wont work out, but I just wanto give us a try. I wanted to give up on our first breakup.. Since things gotta end someday, I thought that day would be the day. Just when I was about to give up. You told me, ' I no longer like you, but I love you... ' But well, love dont seems to bring us far. In the end, thing still doesn't go the way I want it to. They say when you really truly love someone, let him go.. If he comes back, He's yours. If he doesn't, He is not and never will be yours. That's life? It always struck me with dilemma and caught me by surprised. Now I begin to wonder what life has for me next...........

Fetched Eleannor from work, then headed to geylang tgt. Dim sum @ Lor 17 w Eleannor, Johan, Johan's frd(I cant rmb his name) & Weijie. Wanted to have durian too actually but too full from th Dim sum. Aftermath, went strolling somewhere around kallang area w Weijie..

It's 15th, the third 15th since you walked away.

It's Saturday and I'm at home! ):

Curse my stupid menses cramp.

I'm sorry to all that Ive said NO to. I'll make it up next week okay? (:

Feeling so fat now! Had a really heavy supper. Alvin came down to Yio Chu Kang to drive Sissy and me to Upper Bukit Timah for supper. Bark came down to joing us. Omg, their service really sucks! When my curry came is like just taken out from the fridge, I asked for a change to a hotter one. Guess what? I think they just brought me the similar one. I was fuming! Alvin then asked them to actually go and boil it! LOL. Okay, I'm super tired. Off to bed~

I'm having nightmares almost every single night. I'm beginning to be afraid to fall asleep...

Someone, Anyone tell me how to get sweet dreams?

RULES:
1. Put your music on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

If someone says, "Is this okay?" you say...
Dangerous - Akon ft Kardinal

What would best describe your personality?
Glamour Bitch - Milano

What do you like in a guy/girl?
Because you loved me - Celine Dion

How do you feel today?
Better In Time - Leona Lewis

What is your life's purpose?
Destination - Alex Gaudino

What is your motto?
It's not over - Daughtry

What do your friends think of you?
Maybe - Secondhand serenade

Where will I find true happiness?
Angels & Devils - Dishwalla

What do you think about very often?
Easy - Paula Deanda ft lil' Wayne

What is 2+2?
Beautiful Soul - Jesse Mcartney

What do you think of your best friend?
Future sex - Justin Timberlake

What do you think of the person you like?
Who knos - Avril Lavigne

What is your life story?
Baby can I hold you - Ronan Keating

What are you thinking about right now?
That girl - Frankie J ft Mannie Fresh & SLim Thug

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Here Without you - 3 doors down

What do your parents think of you?
Let Me love you - Mario

What will you dance to at your wedding?
Collide - Howie Day

What will they play at your funeral?
It's too late to apologise - Timbaland

What is your hobby/interest?
Blind - Lifehouse

What is your biggest secret?
Love Generation - Bob Sinclair

What do you think of your friends?
Hello - Lionel Richie

What must a romantic dinner have?
Give it to me -Timbaland ft Nelly Furtado & Justin Timbalake

What's the worst thing that could happen?
Poison - Groove Coverage

What is the one thing you regret?
Last Night - Diddy ft Keyshia Cole

What song do you like best?
Gimme more - Britney Spears

What makes you smile?
Can you feel the love - Atlantic Star

What makes you cry?
Tattoo -Jordin Sparks

Will you ever get married?
What the world needs now is love - Carpenters

What scares you the most?
Killa -Cherish

Does anyone like you?
Lil love - Bone Thug & Harmony ft Mariah Carney & Bow Wow

If you could go back in time, what would you change?
Like A star - Corinne Bailey Rae

How would you confess to your crush?
If we hold together - Diana Ross

What hurts right now?
I think of you - Tata Young

Plucked my earpieces into my ears before I enter th lift, while I was walking to th Bustop... Every single songs played, bring back memories. Memories of me & you. Bits by bits. ' From this moment on ; Too serious, too soon ; I'm Yours ; Xiao Jiu Wo ; Bleeding love ; Ai De Zhu Xuan Lu ; Cyclone ; Gei Wo Yi Shou Ge De Shi Jian ; Europhine ; Yong Qi ; Nan Ren Nv Ren ... '

The day we parted seems like it was yesterday.

Have been working til super late for th past few days and I think th upcoming few weeks too, One Amber is burning up. Good signs, burn more burn more. Th hotter th better. Hehehe. After work cabbed down t Flyer to meet Eleannor & Jason. It's Jason 23 bday after th clock strike 12. Headed down to Homeclub. Ming was there too, but not dj-ing for th night. Surprised Jason w a slice of cake out of a sudden. Heh. Aftermath went t th 'zi char' beside blue dolphin for supper & then home.

I saw this interesting somewhere, so... (:

Health:

1. Drink plenty of water.

2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.

3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plant.

4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy

5. Make time to practise meditation, yoga, and prayer.

6. Play more games.

7. Read more books than you did in 2008.

8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.

9. Take a 10-30 minute walk every day. And while you walk, smile :)

Personality:

10. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

11. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.

12. Don't over do. Keep your limits.

13. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

14. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.

15. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

16. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.

17. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
18. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.

19. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

20.Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn.. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.

21. Smile and laugh more.

22.You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Society:

23.Call your family often.

24.Each day give something good to others.

25.Forgive everyone for everything.

26.Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.

27.Try to make at least three people smile each day.

28.What other people think of you is none of your business.

29.Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:

30.Do the right thing!

31. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

32.GOD heals everything.

33.However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

34.No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

35.The best is yet to come.

36.When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.

37.Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

Complicated, everything is.

Making plans of moving out. Just need an escape.

Everything I do, reminds me of J.

How can I remove all parts of you in me..

Steamboat w Aston, Ken & Belle at Tian Tian Huo Guo. It was awesome, all of us eat til we re bout to burst la. My corn, my corn! Haha. A choice between sabai, orchard tower, boatquay and powerhouse. Headed down to powerhouse aftermath. Haha. Kenric, Leo, Daniel and all was supposed meet me there but something cropped up at home so I left early. Im sorry guys, make it up t you guys someday! I miss Chompchomp, let's supper again someday ok? (: Busy day tomorrow, hope Alvin can close One Amber & Seaview deal...

The days we knew, wont come back. Sometimes I still think of you. I wonder why. Well, in life things dont always go our ways. It has been 2 months plus going 3.. Yet you are still living inside me. Many asked, why did I let you go? I wanted so much to hold on to you, but I just played a ' I-dont-care ' front to you. You left and never be back. Gone were the days you wipe my tears and hug me tight. Im left all alone soaking my pillows with my bucketful of tears. I hate to still miss you, but I do. I push away everyone who came near me.. Someone, anyone wake me up and tell me it's all over....

Hope you're well.

Bon Voyage.

I hope you have a happy holiday.

Enjoy Bangkok.

Im back! Getting better. Things that dont kill you just make you stronger. & Yes Im a strong girl. Alot happened, more than I can handle. I wished I had 48hours a day, 24hours is simply just too little. So many tasks, so little time. Thanks all who made my February. It could be worst.