I trimmed my hair, cut bangs and dye my hair black. {:

Staffs party last night. I drank too much, I got myself so fucking drunk and I actually passed out. First time ever and I'll make sure it's the last time too. Because I hate the 'I'm so highhhhhh' feeling and I don't like it when I tried to recall what happened last night but I can't remember a single shit.

Thankyou Lester & Jonas for taking care of me for the whole night. {:

Oh btw, I changed my hp no. Ask me for the new no. {:

This is my classmate,Valerie. & this is 1 of the photo from my photography project.

Friday night, saturday morning weren't that awesome afterall. Things were quite screwed up. I saw someone wearing the same jacket that you wore the other time & I got so fucking emo after that and I don't why. I seriously hate that kinda feeling. But well, vodkas & cigs didnt fail to make me forget all my misses for you temporary.

So long since I last see you, what are you doing right now?

Okay, reviews finally ended! & I think I flunked almost everything very badly. Got tonnes of thrashings from everyone who cares about me. I'm terribly sorry, Darlings! I give you my words that I'll do my retrival projects with my heart and soul & I'll not laze my days away when the new semster starts. {:

Today right after IS review, I suddenly feel like my life is so empty. Kinda weird without staying up late to chiong all my works. Alright, clubbing tonight! :D

I happened to chance upon this email whic 1 of my friends mailed me like months ago. & I think it's quite erm.. accurate?

TAURUS - The Tramp Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth!

'Hello darling, what are you doing right now at this moment?' , 'Did you remember to miss me today?' Awww.. how sweet, I wish these came out from your little mouth. But well, I wish, I hope and I pray. /: That call caught me unexpectedly but no doubt it didnt fail to make me a silly girl who smiled the whole night. It has been a week, I misses you alot. I've so many things to ask, tell, confide in you. Btw, get well soon! <3

Projects suck big time. I dying from excess projectworks.

Long stressssssssful week, sleep-less nights, suffocating from mountains high homework. Hang on there, Bessie! In less than a week and phew everythings are gone! :D Oh yay! I see holiday nearing. So many things to be done during the holidays.. Come pick your date now, honeys! {:

Btw, it was my younger little sister birthday yesterday. Happy Funky Fifteen Little Asshole. Now that you're older please please stop bullying me. :D Oh anw, my daddy is a big Asshole.

I wonder if you still remember our movie date.

They say bad things come in a row, true enough. I experienced them today. One after another, adding together to 5 in total. Like wtf. First 1 of my close friend called me when I'm on my way to school breaking the news of her breakup with her 4yrs girlfriend to me, hours later another called me telling me he found out that his girlfriend sleeps around, after I hung up his call I got a text from my Malaysia relative saying my grand aunt passed away this morning. My bloody handphone just blackout right away after I finished reading the text. Resulting me unable to read texts and see missed call. >: & caused some to be damn pissed for being unable to reach me.. Next when I was crossing a road, there's this idiotic speeder who almost knock me down flat on the floor! But a passerby save my life! {: Lastly, I just got the blames for every shits that I didn't even do from that bloody Eddy who thinks that he is most perfect when he is just another loser. Wanted to fight back with him initially but aye today is a tiring day. I just take all the shits, packed my bag and went home. Fuck you, Eddy.

Today is too much for a day.

Oh by the way, I finally cant stand my handphone anymore! Going to get it sells off tomorrow! Getting a touch screen pinky pinky cutesy handphone which most of my friend said 'eeeek! so girly!!' tomorrow too. Heh. {: I'm super broke this month, just got myself a new psp and handphone on its way. Omgosh, it's only 14th. Hopefully I don't quarrel with Daddy. /:

Ohya, adding on to the 'bad happenings' list.. I didnt see you for 2 days already! Was expecting at least a call. But well, disappointment filled my endless awaits. }:

Happy happy Birthday, Mr Shalom! :D
Thanks for always being there to listen to me whine every single little thing of my unhappiness! Thanks for always there to let me pour my stuffs to you. Thanks for always there to bitch with me! Thanks for helping me here and there all along. Thanks for being sucha sexy naughty bitch! {: & hey, please cheerup my dear friend. Life goes on, live life to the fullest to ensure that it's your ex greatest regret to leave you for others! :D & you're not any where near lousy for all your works okay?! Relax and take a break dont get so stress up. Think of the goodiee side, 3 months holiday in weeks time! {:

I'm here for you, always.

Woke up late this morning, caboked the morning class again. Wento cash out my pay cheque instead. & followed by some shopping for after like a month. :D I freaking splurged a quarter of my pay on Dorothy Perkins! /: Bought 2 tops and a dress. Muhahaha. I'm a happy girl now. :3 Oh anyway, it was charcoal drawing class today. Bridget's most fun class! & it's also the nicest workpiece I did in her class I think. haha. I drew roger! (: It's so so so awesome! But that Roger drew me like a fat cat! }: lol. Meetup someone who used to be very important to me after class.


& hey! I still wanto say Thankyou for did, doing & going to do for me. I'm very touched by everything, especially that text. I'm happy to see how you changed for a better person. The H I used to know and the H I know now is totally another person. Don't worry so much for me please, I may be dumb at times but I'm not dumb all the time okay? I know what's going on, what I'm doing. & of course I know how to prevent myself for getting hurt too.. {:


Anyway, wento Takashimaya with Serene to get fragrance. Err, no I meant to see her get fragrance! lol. Oh fuck it! It's has been so damn long since I last splurge on Anna Sui stuffs! My mascara, lip stick, eye liner, foundation are running low.. & I love the new fragrance! Smell soooooo sweet. But well, I think I'll rather save it for another month and get it from taiwan Dfs instead. heh! {:


Imy*

Initially wanted to go somewhere quiet alone and complete all my homeworks. But well, plan changed. Decided to give myself another day of holiday. /: Wento Novus to lepak and get my cheque instead. It was a bonus to see you there. {: I don't know about you, but I'm a happy girl when you're around. I wish you I could see you everyday. When will I see you again? Oh by the way, Movie zest away monday blues! Louis Khoo is as cool as ever.

Many times, I hesitated to or not to do so. But at the second thought, I don't want to live life full of regrets.. I don't want to miss my maybe last chance?! So I took a step ahead. Any idea how much courage I plucke out in order to give you that little note? I made the first move, the rest is up to you. {:

This is for those nice people out there who read and tag my blog! :3 ( Tag replies from the very last tag I stoppe replying. )

To Jingni : Haha. You too! :D

To Kenric : Yessssss! why cannot ah? Btw, menthol light sucks don kup w you next time anymore. hahaha. / :

To Celestine : hahaha. YES, I DO! (:

To Aziera : Updated my dear! {:

To Bodybuilder : Thankyou, you slut! :0

To Hmm : Haha. why?

To Candice : Yea, sure! :D

To Someone : To be back t d past I gotta know who re you eh?!

To Peiyi : YES SURE! so ve o's ended? {:

To Nick : Haha. saw already right? (:

To Cheryl : Heh. Gotcha! :D

To Haha : Errr, yea! Don you do that too? ._.

To An asshole : LOL! you jackass! /:

To Cf : Cutting down. (: Btw, u re?

To Hui- : You re? Zhihui, Shihui, Huimin, Huifang, Huiying, Huiyan or Jiahui? ps.

To B : Hahaha. you this imposter! /:

To passerby : Thanks baby! :D

To passerby2 : Thanks darling! :D

To Sj : You idiot, forever cancel dates last minute. I hate you, bitch! hehe.

To A : Msg for keng? Comment in her blog instead? (:

To Jamie : Thanks for ur concern darling, and sorry to make you & d rest worry. I'm fine, I'm alright. Loves! {:

To Eve : Ehhhhh, I'm not attached la.

To Celestine : Don ve to be sry dear, it's alright. (:

To Kns : hahaha. I'm still alive la, dude.

To Jas : So did you enjoy that day party? (:

To passerby : Haha. What do u think?

To Chunjun : will do so asap.

To Beautiful Stranger` : @.@

To Candice : Yea, sure. Haha. Yesssssss, everythign is going fine. {:

To Bunny : Haha. why u tag as bunny sia?

To p/s : -.-

To Beautiful Stranger` : Amazing!

To kelly : {: Love you baby.

To p/s & beautiful stranger` : you both funny sia. :z

To Some tagger : Thanks! :D Yea, those feelings suck big time! But well, for everything we do, we do it for love. Yea, hopefully time works for d both of us. {:

To Bunny : Hehe. You're so sweet my dearest. Yea, going tmrw. {:

To Yifang : heh! Sure. (: miss you too. but hey, we can only meetup after my review week. sry girl! (:

So caught up with so many stuffs. My life is in a mess, total mess. So messy that I have no idea how to sort out everything neatly. So many things undone, homeworks as high as moutains. All I know is I need to take a break now. Planning bangkok / genting trip with few friends. Taiwan end of the year, with my family this time round. Korea at the beginning of next year. Ahhhhhh! But before everything I gotta complete all my drawings, 2d, 3d projects and research! omgosh. It's sucha nightmare thinking of everything right nooow. I'm needing some love yo! Particularly yours. Will you?

Talked to one of my long-lost-contact friend who we used to be very close, just got in touched again. Thankyou very much for listening to me whine, hearing me out to my every single problems. You know, it's very touched to know that I've a friend who is seriously willing to listen to me, not hear just for the sake of hearing. I got your message, no one loves to be third party but hence on the other hand love is blind. Yea, I'm very trapped. I don't know to step a step ahead / a step back , or should I just stay put here? I seriously don't know where is all these going to lead to. Enlighten me someone!

I may look happy on the outside but if you felt how i felt on the inside, you'll understand. Do you know I hate it so much when you don't make an effort to make me feel important. I praying to recieve your call again, I miss how your phonecall make my heart skipped a beat. On a more serious note, I need you to assure me where do I stand..

Guessing and trying to read what's on your mind make me very tired. Actions speak.

Gosh! Time flies fucking fast whenever it's holidays. The 1 week break going to end soon and my homework is still like mountain high. It seems that with / without the break it makes no difference to my amount of work completed. Ohgosh, I think lasalle is going to kick this super lazy girl, Bessie out soon. Cabok, cabok, never do homework somemore. I think I can seriously go and die. /: But at least I still choose to come home after dinner to chiong my homework over going to club with my fellow clubbers. {:

Just when I thought everything is going right, I am wrong.

You promised to be my firefly to chase away the blues and put on a smile on my face whenever I'm feeling down. I'm unhappy. Are your butt sizzling hot now?

At times, I find some stuffs are just too good to be true. For that moment, I just love the 3 seconds of my life, alot. I like the way you feed me. 1, 2, yes twice today. {:

I'm amazed by how people I don't give a damn care so much about my life.

Ohgosh! It's thursday today. I've yet start on my projects. Tonnes of homework waiting for me but I'm like too lazy to do anything. I think I grew fatter during this 1 week break, recently keep having craving for icecreams.. Just yesterday and today I had 5 icecream sticks! /: I think I wasted another week again, mygosh. 1week with only 7 days is too short, why can't we have 10 days in a week? Anyway, I think I'm just wasting today away. Most of the time sitting at a corner of my room staring into spaces doing nothing. Should have went out with Kenric and gang, at least I dont just waste my time staring into spaces I get to socialise too. lol. Ahhhhh, fuck it. I'm feeling so useless, I think Lasalle is going to kick me out soon. }:

Oh by the way, did you look into the sky tonight? It's flooding lots of stars over here. Was sitting at my doorsteps staring into the sky after dinner. If only you were here to look into the sky with me. I even witnessed a shooting star, made a wish. Hopefully it comes true. {: Ahhhh, I don't know why is it that everytime when I'm blogging it's always the song 'Miss you like crazy by the moffatts' and that damn song always doesn't fail to make me think of you. Fuck it, I really hate waiting and guessing alot.

What are you doing right now? What are you thinking about?

I'm missing you a little right now. Listening to Miss you like crazy by the moffatts , I miss you like crazy, even more than words can say. I miss you like crazy, every minute of every day... You're all that I want, You're all that I need.. Can't you see how I feel, can't you see that my pain's so real.. When I think of you, I don't know what to do.. When will I see you again? You wanted me to cut down on my number of cigs but whenever I think of you I don't know why my fingers just reach out for those sticks and will light then up automatically. I miss you, miss you, miss you like crazy.

Anyway,
-beautiFuLl stRanger- says (9:27 PM):
mygod
-beautiFuLl stRanger- says (9:27 PM):
if its e end of e world oso i'll nvr befren them
-beautiFuLl stRanger- says (9:28 PM):
like so many times they try talkin to me i like ignore only
-beautiFuLl stRanger- says (9:28 PM):
like i give the i'm not so hard up on you attitude
-beautiFuLl stRanger- says (9:29 PM):
i think i'm e only one left they nvr get to really talk too
-beautiFuLl stRanger- says (9:29 PM):
haha
-beautiFuLl stRanger- says (9:29 PM):
if they think they're pretty, likw wtf they're too short to be even a model
-beautiFuLl stRanger- says (9:29 PM):
if they think they're rich, other ppl are so much richer
-beautiFuLl stRanger- says (9:30 PM):
and if they think they're cool, i'm a miliion times cooler
-beautiFuLl stRanger- says (9:30 PM):
juz because daddy haf alot of cash, u haf a few tattoos n piercings doesn't mean i wanna befren u
-beautiFuLl stRanger- says (9:31 PM):
in my eyes they're like pieces of shit despo for my attention

Hahahahaha! It's damn funny. {:

It's 3.15am, raining very heavily over here at my side of town. I can't fall asleep. When I close my eyes, I see images of you. Spending some time talking to my heart, I feel so lost and lonely. As much as I wanted to keep you here by my side. I feeling so useless for being unable to control my own feelings. I'm thinking about our conversation just now, thinking of what you said to me just now. I understand, hence on the other hand I'm quite hurted by how painful reality can be. I don't get why did you apologise to me and even promised me no more next time. How I wished the rain could wash away all these. I don't know where I'm heading now, I lost my directions. Or am I too blinded by my love for you. I lighted another stick. Honestly, sometimes I really hope that I know you earlier. I tried avoiding, hoping that things will bland off. But I'm wrong, very wrong. It went deeper instead. At times I really have the urge to run infront of you and hug you tightly and forget the world for that moment.

I spent my whole afternoon searching high and low.

& I found it! {:

Viewing those pictures, reading those comments..

I can hear my heart groaning in pain.
I hate myself for loving you very much.

I wonder why did we even meet and fall in love too.

I'm lost, I don't know which way should I head.

Rihanna-Hate That I Love You

That's how much I love you

That's how much I need you

And I can't stand ya

Must everything you do make me wanna smile

Can I not like it for awhile

No..but you won't let me

You upset me girl, then you kiss my lips

All of a sudden I forget that I was upset

Can't remember what you did

But I hate it

You know exactly what to do

So that I can't stay mad at you

For too long, that's wrong

But, I hate it

You know exactly how to touch

So that I don't wanna fuss and fight no more

So I despise that I adore you

And I hate how much I love you boy

I can't stand how much I need you

And I hate how much I love you boy

But I just can't let you go

And I hate that I love you so..

And you completely know the power that you have

The only one that makes me laugh

Sad and it's not fair how you take advantage of the fact that I love you beyond the reason why

And it just ain't right

And I hate how much I love you girl

I can't stand how much I need you

And I hate how much I love you girl

But I just can't let you go

And I hate that I love you so

One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me

And your kiss won't make me weak

but no one in this world knows me the way you know me

So you'll probably always have a spell on me

That's how much I love you

That's how much I need you

That's how much I love you

That's how much I need you

And I hate that I love you so

And I hate how much I love you boy

I can't stand how much I need you

And I hate how much I love you boy

But I just can't let you go

And I hate that I love you so

And I hate that I love you so.. so..

Went over to zouk instead, plush next week. {:

Amazingly I got in without any id.

I enjoyed my night with you, alot.

As much as you wanted time to stop right at that very moment, so do I.

I realised I've gone deeper than I thought it is.

I don't want think about anything right now.

I just you to take another glance at me.

Does that kiss mean anything?

No matter how hard it is, I promise you.

That 44minutes of my life is fucking awesome.

Dear god, thanks for answering my prayers.

I can't decide. Movie or clubbing?

Whatever it is I cant wait, I cant wait.

2millions tonnes of misses just for you. :}

The train, where we first dated.

I hopped onto your love train and I never wanto alight.

Dearest B,

Thankyou for everything you did for me, ily. I'm proud to be the first girl you sat there doing nothing & waited for 2hours. I'm so honoured to be the first girl you confessed to. I'm happy to hear you telling me how important I'm to you. I'm so touched to get to know how much you sacrifice for me. I'm glad that my smile can make you happy. I'm contented with what we're now.

Xoxo,

the girl who love to ask why.